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[25 Aug 2010|04:07pm] |
Viskol forgets that he is a rather large dog and walking him is really difficult. My arms hurt from him tugging so hard! Though he is a good dog. He just needs more exercise. Maybe I should take him to the park with his favourite ball.
I should see if that German couple wants me to help again. Viskol eats quite a bit, and I do need the money. At least...for now things have settled down at HQ. Not by a lot but it's calmer than normal. I just hope everyone will be okay. I still feel so useless. I-I couldn't help them as much as I would have liked. I need to do better or else I'll...
Well, at least it's good to be back. I was starting to miss getting yelled at by Dr. McCoy, oh well not really. I just sort of miss working for him. He's an amazing doctor. [deleted] school.
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[12 May 2010|03:31am] |
Perhaps it was... it was a bad idea to drink so much coffee. I was only taking advice! I am so worried about not passing my finals that I just... I've been studying all night. I have tried everything to relax! I've taken a bath, drank some herbal tea, and even tried just laying down.
Mn, and I have work tomorrow. Good thing it's later in the afternoon. Maybe I'll get lucky and at least get some sleep before I go in. The stress is...making me nervous. I'm trying so hard and I just... it feels so useless.
I should look over this review sheet over again. Maybe I'll fall asleep at my desk.
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[23 Apr 2010|12:02am] |
They probably were all called on a mission. The Supervisor is always so busy with that and... Aleister's gone. I told him I'd take care of Viskol for him. I miss him already. Viskol misses him too. He keeps sitting at the door waiting for Aleister to return home. Perhaps I should take him on a walk, or try and get him to play with me. Oh God what am I supposed to do?
I apologise for not warning you about Viskol. Dr. McCoy, Miss Paprika, I hope you aren't allergic to dogs, or don't like them. I'm so sorry I just... he couldn't take him home to HQ. I don't think the Supervisor would have allowed a Great Dane.
I better finish that homework assignment. It's going to take me a while. I can't seem to focus. I feel so useless. What am I going to do?
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[08 Apr 2010|04:30pm] |
I've been reviewing most of my medical books lately. I figure that with this job it is a good idea to constantly go back and review. That and I am worried I am still doing things wrong. I am not going to fail. I can't disappoint him. Though maybe I should pick up some of those medical journals I keep hearing about from my peers. I...I think it'd be nice to hear about all of the new medical techniques and equipment they use.
I have to improve. I don't want to let the Supervisor down nor Dr. McCoy...
I wonder how the Supervisor is doing. Maybe I should write to him as I haven't heard from him in a while. I hope he's okay. He's always so stressed out even with his son and his wife. I am sure Ema...Ema is taking care of him.
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[16 Feb 2010|01:56pm] |
I'm still not good enough. I try so hard but I feel so sluggish lately. I can't move as fast as he wants and I... I need to work harder. I have to make myself move faster.
Perhaps I will try and take a break this evening from studying so much. I think tomorrow as well seeing as I might need to lay down just for a little while. Just to rest my eyes. Maybe...maybe all that reading is hurting my eyes or something. Or take a nap...I'm so tired.
Oh! Aleister I was thinking of cooking something for dinner tonight. Um, would you like some?
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[07 Feb 2010|03:11am] |
Dr. Tenenbaum I... I was wondering if I could work with you a bit more when you have time. I don't want to be too much of a bother but... but I want to succeed. I hate letting him down and I want to do everything I can. I hate feeling so useless...
I'm grateful that tomorrow is a day off. Weekends couldn't come any sooner seeing as I have so much to do. So much laundry! I feel like I haven't done anything in a month. If any one needs something done I don't mind doing it. I think I'll get up early tomorrow to clean the fridge, and perhaps the kitchen.
Maybe I will go to the store later. I was thinking of cooking dinner tonight. Aleister would you like to come over for that? You could bring Viskol if you'd like as well! I could get him a ball... maybe teach him how to play fetch? What do you think?
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[30 Jan 2010|04:21am] |
I feel like I haven't slept the entire week. Which isn't true, as I have been at least getting some sleep. A few hours, a nap here and there, but the stress is eating me alive. I...I feel so useless. Or.. well useless isn't the term now is it? I feel restless. I should at least try and sleep so I can work on studying for the next week. At least I think I might be improving a small bit. It's a start, just a start, but it's a step in the right direction? Right?
Maybe once I've actually slept I'll go grocery shopping. Golbez, Paprika, Dr. McCoy... ahhh would you like something while I am there? I wouldn't mind picking anything up seeing as I won't be buying too much for myself. I can hardly eat as it is...
I can't help but... find myself thinking on how Victoria is doing. She was such a sweet girl and I do hope she is all right. If that Jamie fellow did anything to upset her... well I'll... I'll do something! She was so smitten with him too.
Oh! Jack, I have something for you. Are you...busy tomorrow? I could bring it by before I go shopping if you'd like?
Mn, I should try and sleep. At least I finished my homework.
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[21 Jan 2010|02:50pm] |
SO MUCH FOR GOOD LUCK. Oh my I have never had any problems before though is this a problem? He is my professor but my goodness he's so harsh! and now I... I must work harder. I will have to read all of my school books again and I will make up whatever work I do have.
Is it wrong of me to wonder if Miss Taylor could come back? I wouldn't call him yelling at me encouragement. I'm so clumsey. Maybe this nursing thing isn't the path for me. I thought I was doing well too.
At least the weekend is comig up. I might just want to work more on my studies however... None of us measure up. I wonder how many of us will make it through the semester. Maybe... maybe our previous teachers have been too soft on us. I will do my best!
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[17 Jan 2010|04:46am] |
What a lovely holiday! It was so nice to visit Tann and see everyone again. They seemed shocked to see me doing so well... but I suppose that means my bad luck has finally turned around.
Though not so much seeing as I have realised I read the dates wrong. I... can't believe I've missed a few days of class already! I...I'll have to work hard to make it up. Of all the things to forget was the dates of when school starts. I don't even know how I am going to apologise to my professors. Maybe I will talk to them in person on the morrow if they have their office hours posted.
If I can't make up the work I don't know what I'll do... I don't know if it'd be wise to just drop all of my classes.
I better start studying... I'm so glad I got all of my books previously. Perhaps if I read what I might have missed it may make things a bit easier. I feel like such a failure already but I ... I can't quit now. I should, ahh try and look on the good side.
...is there a good side to this?!
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[05 Jan 2010|08:17pm] |
Munich! I cannot believe we're going to Munich and Tann and-- Oh my I better finish packing. I have so much I have to do before we leave and there is so little time. I should go and say good bye to Viskol before we leave as well. I hope he will be all right without us for a week...he has been doing so well in his training.
I cannot wait... Aleister I cannot thank you enough! I do hope you enjoy Munich. It's a beautiful town and I... oh my...
Dr. Tenenbaum I will bring you something home from Munich! I will be sure to bring your gift before I leave. I had lost it when I finally managed to clean my room... but I found it while packing! I will bring this over very soon!
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[05 Dec 2009|01:22am] |
Victoria left. I do hope she is all right, though I'm sure...sure that Jamie is keeping her safe. I suppose I couldn't keep them apart forever. I just hope she is happy. She deserves it.
There is so many things to get done I'm not even sure how I am going to do it! Viskol needs to continue his training (he's doing very well at that), and I need to keep studying. I will just have to stay up this weekend and read my books! I have that study guide my professor gave me. And I have to return to the hospital for a check up on my arm... I don't have time for all of this! What if I can't do it all? What if I fail?! It's going to happen. Perhaps I took too many medical classes again. So much for good luck... I never have good luck.
At least I enjoyed myself the other day. We should do that more often, Aleister!
I think I am going to make some tea. I hope I don't disturbe my quadmates... but what if I do!? They'll be upset and...and...
Maybe I shouldn't make tea.
Though I was thinking about it - ahh... Death? I was wondering if you'd like to go out for tea in the future!
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[06 Nov 2009|08:47pm] |
Aleister...thank you for inviting to me to the dance! I had so much fun! I don't think I've danced to much before. I... thank you so much!
Halloween was lovely. I...I don't remmeber what I did last year but I am certain I will remember this year. Oh Victoria! You looked wonderful and you made a darling ghost! I don't think I ever thought to say that. Ghosts aren't um...really that cute are they?
Ah! Oh my...um Aleister when did you want me to come over to help Viskol?
I should really clean this kitchen some how and work on my homework. I don't recall when I've had so much energy before either. It must be the coffee I had earlier. I should not...drink so much coffee.
Oh! Right. Homework. I am going to go do that right now.
( private; jack )
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[19 Sep 2009|02:22pm] |
This has been the more difficult than I thought. I have to wake up earlier in the morning to make sure I can get ready for classes. Cooking is much harder with one arm and... I've never broken my arm before. For as clumsey as I can be at times I've never broken a bone before. I can't even put on my corset properly. I'm too afraid to ask my roommates for help. It'd be imporper. It doesn't fit well anyway. I'm worried I'm losing weight because I am having trouble cooking.
Maybe I should ask for help... I don't know what to do right now. I think I got the cast wet when I took a shower this morning. I should probably go back to the hospital to speak with them about it.
Oh, um. I'll do the dishes when I get back. I promise! I am just going to take a walk.
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[09 Sep 2009|05:54pm] |
I'm...really sorry. Supervisor? Aleister? I didn't mean to run off. I was worried and...I never would have forgiven myself if I hadn't tried. It was a stupid idea to run off in the first place.
It's really hard to type with my left hand. I think I have tried to write this entry at least three times. I... I feel so stupid. I knew it was dangerous. I knew he would probably attack me. He was going to kill me. I could have died and I... Maybe I should have. I failed those girls.
I should be getting back to class tomorrow. I don't know how I am going to take notes yet. I can barely hold a pencil in my hand right now, and my right is in a cast.
I can't seem to calm down from it. He's... he was at least my...
I think I want to make some tea. Um...Golbez? Paprika? If something breaks just.. don't worry about it. I'll clean it up. That would be just my luck. Why am I so unlucky?
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[28 Aug 2009|05:23pm] |
Jack... if you ever want to talk again. I... I'm always here.
School has been interesting thus far though... Miss Gray is gone now too. I hope it wasn't my fault. Miss Taylor leaving and now... maybe it's just conincidence. The nursing department, however, is wonderful! I think I am going to do better this year than the last though next time... I'll register for classes early. I should have checked my grades earlier. I had thought I had failed and I... Oh dear...
Victoria are you busy? I was wondering if you'd like to go with me to get some tea? And something for the girls...I wonder what they like? I should have asked. Anyway, there's a shop in town that I haven't visited in quite some time and I think you'd enjoy it!
Maybe I should see if Aleister'd like to go too...in the future.
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[18 Aug 2009|09:24am] |
Thank you again, Miss Gray, for your assistance earlier. I...I'm terribly sorry to hear that Miss Taylor has left. She really helped me through so much of my studies that I never really...got to thank her properly. Perhaps if I write a letter to her... I can find a way for her to get it! That would be wonderful, actually.
And changing quads wasn't so bad. Jamie, Death, Rimmer...the pleasure was all mine. I am certain I will see you all again as well! I think it would be lovely if we went for tea, Death. I...I would like that quite a bit.
Ah. Golbez? Paprika? It is a pleasure to meet you. I look forward to sharing a quad with you.
I must say it wasn't too difficult to move in. Though it was mostly personal items that needed to be moved quickly. I don't think I've ever been able to fit all of my clothing in my chest before. Perhaps it is luck? No... but it was easy to transport! I..I think at least. I can't recall how exactly I managed to get it here. But it's here. That's what matters.
Oh! Aleister, Victoria, where are you staying now?
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[26 Jul 2009|06:12pm] |
( Private; Hackable )
Perhaps she is right...I should lay down. I'm afraid I'm not thinking clearly since the other night. I do believe I am going to make myself some tea before I do this. It sounds like a lovely option and I have a new tea pot! I found some money under my bed in my room.
Things ...do seem rather off today to begin with.
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[23 Jul 2009|08:48pm] |
The screen is blurry... and I still need to go to the store. I broke my teapot earlier and I can't piece it back together. My finger... oh right it's still bleeding.
I should go to the store. It's open late, right? I think I need to get some food as well. Maybe I'll check the fridge before I go. Rimmer, Jamie, Death? Did you need anything while I am out?
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[15 Jul 2009|11:47am] |
( Private; )
Victoria, tea was lovely last night. Though I didn't mean to delve into your private life...but it still stands! I'm... I'm just glad you're all right. I promise there won't be a...there won't be a next time like that.
Aleister how are you feeling? Did...did you sleep? I can't remember.
If anyone still needs assistance I'll be in the clinic. I...am still learning but my teacher will be there to help me. She says if anyone is still in pain or their wounds need tending to please come here.
I should brew some more tea... it sounds lovely.
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[09 Jul 2009|10:06pm] |
Help. We need help. This man is... he's going to kill us. Rearrange our face or so he's said.
Hurry to the training centre. I don't have much time before he finds me. We still need to get that key from him.
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